5 am

　
Night lies silent
and deep within
regret will
find no shelter here

The darkness hides
my greatest sin
and time is
all we have to fear
　
This ache rides sweet
between my thighs
your lips so soft
and we've begun
　
my ears are tuned
to your faintest sigh
your skin tastes sharp
upon my tongue

a sliver of moon
slinks between the shades
casting shadows
in the moments light

all the doubt
of reason fades
we are lost
to the velvet night

where nothing exists
but this blazing heat
the culmination
of reckless plans

And everything i want
and need
is shifting, sliding
beneath my hands.
　

treasure

You were the dragon.
and I wanted to be your treasure.

so I shut my mouth.
I bowed my head
I knelt at your feet.

You took control
You took for granted


You believed me submissive
You believed me naive
You believed me owned

You assumed too much
How could you be so blind?
　
You were the dragon
And kneeling at your feet
i stole your treasure away.
　
　
　
　

spring..

you have always been my love he said
before counted stars, before measured time
　
you are always in my thoughts he said
never are you far from my mind

You will always have my heart he said
all I need is your hand in mine
　
We will never be apart he said
but then he left, with no goodbye

Indecision..

Two paths I follow
in the morning light
winding, merging
twisting together
splitting apart again
I hold the middle ground

Two paths I follow
as the shadows grow long
one leads to home
the other to my heart
and which path leads where,
is not easily found

Two paths I follow
when the darkness arrives
and the choice I make
is no longer my own
and where it leads is still unknown
but by its destination, i am bound.

edge of hope

Sharp and skittering,
this sudden craving for you.
It scrapes and stings
It leaves me breathless
Holding on for balance
I fall anyway
like the fool I am.
I want to reach out
into the darkness
and find you sleeping
next to me
hope is a double edged sword, my love
and if you hold too tight,
It will slice you to ribbons
and you will bleed.

serenity

Here in this stillness
with you at my breast
in the solitude of this time

we leave the world
outside these doors
and your soul melds with mine.

The heat of your skin
against my own
the beat of your heart at my side

no words are spoken,
not needed here
just the soft breaths of our sighs

This is my heaven,
with my love, and my life
the true paradise I seek
　
And only in the stillness
with you at my breast
do I find the peace that I need

Never Mine

Here in this darkened place alone with my thoughts
and the coppery taste of regret on my tongue
I remember the last time I held your body
when the slickness of desire coated everything but our trust.
your hands on my skin, rough and insistent,
my teeth on your flesh, sharp and tearing
and everything was real for just a moment
time stood still and the world was mine.

But you never were.

something special...something sacred..

Sometimes a lyric , a simple line or stanza in a song , will bring your world into focus. Today as I was sorting through some music ( i love to listen while I write) I was contemplating passion, and how little its referred to in songs. Not just sexual, but that need to be something incredible, sacred, to someone else. And while most of us crave that, need it..want it so completely, we usually settle for far less because of a fear of aloneness. We do not want to spend our lives waiting for something that may never come. Me..well.. Im waiting..And in the meantime, i leave you with the words of one of the greatest, most passionate poets Ive ever loved...

If you are the desert, Ill be the sea
If you ever hunger, hunger for me
whatever you ask for, that's what Ill be

Because all I ever wanted...
Is in your eyes..

we all lose our way
at one time or another.
and we travel down paths
that lead no where
we circle around
we double back
sometimes, we find a short cut.
and sometimes we meet fellow travelers
and for a while, we arent lost alone.
but we're still lost.
Maybe I can help you find your way
I can follow your path for awhile,
or I can just make your path my own
just forget about mine.
maybe we can just stay lost.
　
　
　

Fear

When the angels have flown
and the wicked world sleeps
Light breaks the darkness
as dawn silently creeps

Echos of whispers
and thoughts do deceive
making claims on your sanity
you're too quick to believe

your lost hope, and lost love
if you should look you would find
that what you thought gone
was just a moment behind

The whispers and lies
telling you to despair
will all fade and disperse
like smoke through the air

if you hold onto the memory
of that one gentle kiss
and remember his words
that linger on your lips