Inflict

Too often I stay silent
and let the words rip open
barely healed wounds
and my heart needs to bleed on the page

This damage I do to myself
and you have no blame
even when you swear
there are bloodstains on your hands

I choose to bleed
I choose to remember
I choose to be silent
I choose the pain over letting you go.

ache

I miss you tonight. The words that come so easily when I think of you are stuck in my chest, burning to be let out. But the keyboard is silent, and the room seems too warm to breathe. And I do not know which is worse; the weight of it all pressing down on me, or knowing that you do not feel a thing...

Today I sent you a letter
I wrote for hours
Littered the floor with little paper balls
Trying to get the words just right.
I found a stamp in the back of the kitchen drawer
took an envelope from the stack of bills
I folded the pages as neatly as I could
and closed the flap. With a prayer.
With a kiss.
I know you'll never read it. And if you did,
it wouldnt make much sense. Because you never knew.
I never told you. And now its far too late.
But I wrote you a letter.
And I will leave the rest to fate.

Fragment

I'm not the girl you'll think about
when you remember loves long past
Not the one you wish you held
Not the dream you want to last

I am just a soft, warm touch
across your naked skin
a sudden smile, an errant sigh
or laughter on a whim

You won't remember me at all
You'll soon forget my name
but a piece of me will be in you
an ember of a flame

Imperfect

In a perfect world
it wouldn't matter
these superficial flaws
in skin and thought.
the lies of perception
and insecurity

Only my hand
on your face
The softness of your lips
pressed into mine
The warmth of your skin
as you sleep by my side

Only the way
your heart races
the ache in my chest
when you smile
the need to be
tangled together

In a perfect world
where you are mine
and time has no hold
it wouldnt matter
that perfection
can only be found
in each other's eyes.

Fairytale

You're a book I read
and never wanted it to end.
But I was just acting the words out loud
and reading myself into your life.
I can't change the ending
you have already written.
You cant erase an already finished page.
All I can do now is put the book
back on the shelf and remember
how the story touched me.
and maybe one day Ill get to read
that story again.

Tangled

There was a single moment
when everything was perfect;
Your breath against my skin
The warmth and weight of you pressing into me.
You were everything, and I was yours.
Time was banished and only we existed.

It was a single, perfect moment.
And I will live forever inside it.

Vicious Love

go ahead
rip it out
watch it beat in your hands
let the dreams drip through your fingers like blood
drop it,
stomp it
watch it shatter like glass
grind the splintered shards into the mud

hollowed out
and poisoned
no promise left to keep
a monster lurks within the damaged shell
soulless.
heartless.
crying tears of bitter faith
as it leads you slowly down the paths of hell

Soon...

Where is my peace tonight?
I'm desperate for a taste.
The shadows are drawing ever closer
and there is no light, no laughter ,
to drive back the demons that hide in the darkness.
Where is the heat to warm this chill?
Holes ripped through my soul,
like tangled flesh on a barbed wire fence,
letting in the cold, letting in the doubt.
Letting in the real that would strip away my sanity
So where is that sip of poison I crave
like the tingle of sweat on my tongue?
If there is no light to drive back the shadow,
then let me dance in the darkness.
Let me be one with the demons.

5 am

　
Night lies silent
and deep within
regret will
find no shelter here

The darkness hides
my greatest sin
and time is
all we have to fear
　
This ache rides sweet
between my thighs
your lips so soft
and we've begun
　
my ears are tuned
to your faintest sigh
your skin tastes sharp
upon my tongue

a sliver of moon
slinks between the shades
casting shadows
in the moments light

all the doubt
of reason fades
we are lost
to the velvet night

where nothing exists
but this blazing heat
the culmination
of reckless plans

And everything i want
and need
is shifting, sliding
beneath my hands.